i am always here

I take the journey to my heart
i dive deep deep deep
its just here all around, but the misconception is clear
i cannot hear
a voice so dear
fear comes near
contraction appear,
everytime i say i will listen to my heart
big reaction of fear

then , what can i say
frozen i just go my way
still and imobilised
half paralysed

dreadful the future, life is futile
what am i making out of this life, out of this present, time is never enough

its what you create
next time you'll incarnate
you 'll have a better chance
or you can just do it now

I take a journey to dive deep into my heart
same mistake from the start
my heart and all is already here
all that appear and disapear

never too far too near
but it is myself, my own attention, i look from too close, and become suffocated
i almost forgot i was too concentrated
in what it seems to strangle me, it was my own hands

a step back, and further back
coming to my senses
a whisper comes from the heart
my dear, my condolences
what is this a joke!
someone is playing tricks on me,
my own friend
my loan

i need to return
what i took from the earth
before i come home

the misconception of what is real
misidentification with fear
the fear to ceaze to be

i let it go

i am no longer,
as i never existed

i fall on the emptiness of what is already here
God how much i missed home
mistaken my self for the fear

too long, too close, too short
i am gone  i am gone i am gone

i am home

i was always here

21.11.2017