a familiar struggle - a familiar force

a familiar struggle


the force that pushes me around
to find a better place
a place to feel at home
but it is a joke
and i forget
when i meet the people
what was i initially came here for.
and i forget
that was about finding a place to call home.
and i forget
that it's not the people
but it is the people
the people who pushed me away
and me trying to become more human
like them
and feel more human like them
as human as them
the same rights as them
i m trying to stand at the same height as them
but i keep falling
i keep falling
on my knees
on the ground even
until i remember
where do i come from?
where do i belong?
what am i doing here?
why i came here at the first place.
the first place

and the same familiar force
keeps pushing me around

i know i have no right to talk
to talk, for a struggle so small
so small that it takes a lifetime,
so silent
so seemingly unimportant,
when lifetimes
so many lives are so much suffering
and they dare ! to rise!
they dare to rise from the pain,
to their true height!
against all odds and against all opinions
they dare to rise
and claim their lives!
their lives that matter!

and it seems as if my struggle is too small
because im only one,
but im not the only one
dying silently by not living
a life of not importance
based on what?
lies
that came to become true
true?
hallucinations

i wonder when
will you rise up
to your true nature
to your true value
and raise your arms and tell that force to step back!
stop pushing me around
seeking for places
all i need is within me
and still it seems unbelievable
that i have worth!
that my life is worthy!
just like yours!

we all rise from the sea of unworthiness
this common disease of misidentification
with external things such as gender, and origins..
what is our true identity cannot fit in
vague words and no one
can take it away

Rise up and see your true beauty
your true worth!

rise up as life takes care of life and love is love.
rise up and live
because there is nothing more
to achieve in this life, than keep rising
against all odds!

rise and see yourself in beauty and share with all
what you got is just life and that is all.

you are life
and you are worthy of love.

your life is precious
you need to move on beyond
any contradiction to your own.

just rise!
and live fully!
you are here for that!
no time for doubts

 5 3 2020