sit with

 i sit with 

this tension in the stomach 

this energy compressing in there

i sit with it

i can bare with it

i can observe it 

i can be with it 

i can breathe 

with the fact that my needs are not met

that you cant see me 

that i am the one to see my needs

and there is only one 

i sit with me 

that i cannot satisfy you 

that you are not meant to be satisfied right now, as 

you act as the hurtful ego

i sit with myself as i feel my self -stomach tensing - contracting 

when the other one 

is not ready to make space for me 

it is my work 

to be gentle for myself before i can share that with others

because there is no others

if im not gentle with myself, only then others appear 

if i respect myself ,

then they disappear 

 

i am sorry 

 

what else would i do without you?

you think there is someone "you"  out to blame, for what you feel inside 

for the needs in you that are not met

im sorry 

lower vibrations 

and you need to run 

who will sit here with me 

i will 

for how long you will be avoiding feeling the pain ?

for how long can you avoid feeling?

give it 

give it all in !

what we have in common 

we may have different names, shapes, genders, and forms

we may have different dates, identities and numbers

measures and documents, certificates, educations and all that 

but what we all have in common 

we all react to pain 

we all resist or give in to feeling 

thats what we do 

thats what makes us who we are

and not out diplomas and certificates

not the place of birth, thats something in sense of ancestral knowledge, and heritage 

not of self worth or value

not of worse or better

 

we all have a way to respond 

to happiness, joy or pain, and all that we feel 

 

how do we respond to our feelings ?

this is what makes us who we are 

inclusive? 

one or many ?

 

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give into your pain 

sit with it 

 

 

 

5 nov 2021